Goals To Be Set

I am a very talented young woman, but I am wasting my talents. I need to focus on the here and now. So I am going to set a list of goals I must follow.
When I start something I must finish it. Which may seem simple to do to others, but with me I tend to divert a lot.

When I painted the above image of my youngest daughter. I had never used a brush or water colour since at high school. This was my first attempt at a portrait and I was determined to finish it. At this time I had not gone through the fever of cancer, but I had stopped painting. Why? Because I allowed me to be swallowed up in self pity. No! I never had anything to feel pitiful about. Friends made sure there was no space to actually feel pity. Anger! well only towards my husband, but never towards the cancer. 

Questions! I am always asking questions. Yes, that is the answer. With every medical issue you deal with you become preoccupied with solving the whys, but the whys become where's and what for. So the answer you are in search for creates a list that gets longer and longer. Then the hobbies that you enjoyed become obsolete. Your health suffers further with the stress of your quest to solve the question, but what if the answer is there all along. At the time you were looking for a more complicated answer and you were blaming others for the past.

Lessons can be learned from the past, but you need to change to the present. This can only be achieved by you and you alone. We live in a democracy of choice. Those choices are controlled by you. Do we rely on a plumber? or do we pick up a book and learn to change a washer ourselves? It does save time and money.

01.01.2011 is now not then and I am gonna start by painting again ;-D.

Happy New Years Day Folks X